Tony

My father-in-law Tony died on 25t March 2007.  Even though he had been unwell for eight months before he died, it was still such an awful shock to the family, with a rapid decline in his health that felt like it happened overnight.

Tony was a special man, a true gentleman in every sense of the word, a kind heart, who had a warmth that emanated from him, he also gave the best hugs!  I only had seven years with him, in fact, he has been gone longer than I knew him for, I really do miss him.

So much has taken place since he passed.  Craig and I got married, we moved house, we had a little girl. Sometimes, my husband is so sad about the fact that Tony has missed so much, especially seeing Ariane grow into the wonderful little girl she is now at six years old.  This he feels is a fact, Tony has missed it all.  I disagree.

I feel like Tony is always watching Ariane, is around us more than we actually appreciate.  Although in the twelve years since he died, I’ve seen many mediums and also had my own spiritual experiences which I have written about in these blog posts, I would receive messages from all my different loved ones who have passed and also have visitation dreams of grandparents but never in all those years would I hear a thing from Tony.

I would wonder about this, he just felt so “distant”.  Like the others find it easy to penetrate our energy field however Tony finds it more of a challenge for some reason I can’t explain. Once, during a disagreement with Craig about his views on the afterlife (i.e. there is no afterlife) he snapped that it was very convenient that the one person he was closest too that has died is the one person I can’t appear to connect too……….he had a point.

I did have a friend, who is also a medium pick up on him one time after I told her that Tony never comes through.  She got some great evidence when she connected to his spirit and asked me about the French Fancy cakes that he would offer me when I went to his house which was accurate.

A few years after that and still no contact from Tony, we were practising mediumship platform work during our Monday night Circle Class.  One of the fledgeling mediums who was due to do her first platform work that following week, took to the floor for some practice. This is what happened as she started to link in with spirit:

“I have a dog here, a bulldog type, like Staffy, Brindle and he is with a gentleman, can anyone take it?”.

I felt the hairs on the back of my neck stand up.  Tony had a Staffordshire Bull Terrier called Cooper, brindle in colour, that was the family pet but was actually my husband’s dog who passed away three years after Tony did.  I was particularly close to Cooper and as soon as the medium (who was relatively new to the class and knew nothing about Tony or Cooper) mentioned these two together, I realised with excitement that this could be Tony.  No one else in the room could take the pairing so I raised my hand.

“He is so emotional to be here Tanya, he is saying to me that he has always found this hard, that it doesn’t come easily to him to reach out to you, hence why he brought the dog, for some reason that makes it easier for him.  He is really quite emotional at the moment, he must have been an emotional man (this is correct).  He is saying that he has two sons (correct) but never had a daughter, however, he now has a little granddaughter (correct).  He wants to thank you, in particular, Tanya for always talking about him with her and keeping his memory alive (I often talk about Tony to Ariane as if he is still alive, I include him in everything, like when she is drawing pictures of her family to ensure he is not forgotten).  He is telling me about his granddaughter and saying how well she is going to do especially this year at school, you are worried about her at the moment with school but he is saying there is no need to at all, she will excel this year (all true).  He doesn’t want to scare her but he does watch her whilst she plays with her toys.  He says “She is a little Star, quite literally a Star, the word Star has so much meaning here” does that make sense Tanya?” said the medium.

I smiled through my tears (I had never sobbed so much at class before!). I explained to the medium that there is a portrait photo of Ariane on my wall at home with a star shape and the word STAR above her head.  The name Ariane also translates into: little star.

Some weeks later, I woke up in the early hours on a Saturday morning. It was around 5am and I struggled to get back to sleep.  I decided that may be a good time to practice trying to go out of the body (completely normal behaviour I know!).  This happened almost instantly, so much more easily than normal, within seconds I felt myself leave my body, spin around and look at myself and my husband asleep in the bed as I hovered above.  I flew through the wall but I didn’t get very far and zoomed back to my bed and realised I was no longer lying there, I had disappeared.  “Damn I’m dreaming!” I said and realised I was in a lucid dream and it was pitch black in the bedroom.

“Please give me colour!” I shouted out in the “dream”.  Unexpectedly, daylight was switched on into my bedroom, the colours so intense and strong that I had to shield my eyes.  Wow!!  I thought as I noticed that Craig was now sitting up in bed and Ariane was running around the bedroom.  Outside the bedroom window, day time was in full swing and I saw people milling about and some looking in my room, some that are alive and some that I knew were dead but they didn’t actually realise it.  I then saw an old work colleague (alive) who was walking Cooper the dog, the excitement built up in me when I saw him.

I looked down at the palm of my hands and saw all the lines and intricate details of my skin.  “I’m awake in my dream!” I shouted with startling clarity.  It was another lucid dream, the type that gives me one foot in this consciousness and the other in the consciousness that is home to all those that have died.

Craig was still sitting up in bed and I understood that he was dreaming, as was I and I would remember every single detail of this but his chance of recollection was slim.  All the same, I knew exactly what I had to do.  In the past when I had dreams like this I had called in my dead relatives to take a rare opportunity to speak to them, this was my chance to finally connect to Tony in a visitation dream.

I shouted out “Tony, come and see us!!”.  I waited and nothing happened.  I shouted it again and again and still nothing.  I felt so frustrated.  I was awake in this dream and it was my one chance to do this!  How could I get him to come?  Then it dawned on me.  I needed God power.  God power is when we ask the highest being, the angels, the source, the light that is all of love to help us.

“God, please can you bring Tony in to see us?” I asked calmly.

In a heartbeat, my bedroom door swung open and in breezed Tony.  I gasped.  It was him in glorious reality, not a dream, it was him.  He was as real to me in that dream as my husband is now to me in waking.  He looked around 45 years old, hair lightly greying, stone wash blue jeans and a white Aaron jumper with a red pattern on.  We looked at each other and both couldn’t speak as the emotions were just too strong.  He tried to get words out and he couldn’t, the same for me.  Then he looked up and saw Craig, he walked towards me and brushed past me but not in a rude way, in a polite manner that tapped my arm lightly as his face filled with the deepest tears of joy and love for his son.  This was all too much for me, I couldn’t hold my energy there any longer, the pure emotion of it all pulled me straight back to my bed, to my waking life.  I was sobbing.

As I sat up and wiped my cheeks, I felt like I had been hit over the head with a brick.  The experience was so intense and real that I must have been in such a deep state of the subconscious to maintain it.  My forehead ached and it took me a good ten minutes to settle my energies and feel like I was part of “here” again.

On his waking, I asked my husband if he dreamt of his dad.  He said he didn’t, and if he did, he couldn’t remember. I won’t lie to say that I was disappointed to hear this.  But that disappointment didn’t last long because my faith in that Tony had visited me (us!) that morning was so strong that it reassured me that all is well, Tony is well, peaceful and happy.

It also taught me that whenever you need help or if you want something so desperately, just use a little God power, it will never ever let you down.

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Until next time,

Tanya

The Finder Of Lost Things

I have already written about how I have invoked the angels to help me during times that I have managed to get myself lost (unfortunately this has happened on many occasions!).   But what I haven’t shared with you is how they have helped me and others find lost things, namely, car keys!  How did I find out that I could use angels to do this?  I tried it one day, after we were having a mini emergency:

Chaos before France

A few years back we were packing to go on one of our very first driving trips to France with our little toddler, Ariane.  It was really exciting and my husband Craig had been up since the early hours packing the car boot full to the brim with all our things (it was a skiing holiday, so you can imagine the stuff we needed to take!).

My job was to sort the hand luggage and make sure Ariane was dressed and ready to go.  Ten minutes before we had to leave to give enough time to get to our ferry crossing in Dover, Craig walked into the hallway from the driveway looking exasperated.

“I’ve lost the car keys!  I have an awful feeling I’ve left them under all the packing, it’s going to take me ages to pull it all out and put it back again!”.  I shook my head in dismay and said we must check the house first.  So we went to all the normal places that the car keys may be, hanging up by the door, in the coat cupboard, on the coat cupboard floor, in the coats, on the mantel piece, everywhere!  They were nowhere to be seen.

“If they are not in there we are screwed, I have no spare key!” said Craig looking redder and more flustered by the minute.  “I’m taking the boot apart” he said, turning to go back outside.

“Don’t, just wait, five minutes, I’m going to ask for help” I said desperately. “What?!  This is no time for your woo woo Tanya! “ and with that he slammed the front door shut as he left to start taking out all our carefully packed in luggage.

I quickly took Ariane’s hand and we sat together in the middle of my living room, on the raw hide rug.  “Ok, here goes Ariane, I want you to ask the angels with me”.

I had never really tried this before, in terms of asking the angels to help find something.  They had always helped me when I was lost, so I prayed they could do the same thing this time around.  Ariane and I silently said a prayer to ask for help, as the clock tick tocked away behind us, reminding us that time was running out to make our crossing.

Once I asked the angels I sat and waited to see what would happen.  In my mind’s eye, I saw the coat cupboard in our hallway, the one we had already checked.  But then I was shown the floor in that cupboard.  Without a moment’s hesitation, I jumped up and Ariane and I swiftly made our way there.  I opened the door and looked down.  I couldn’t see the keys.  But something told me to look closer.  There was a black lap top bag laying on the carpeted floor, and on top sat the black car keys, perfectly camouflaged so that first time around we had no chance of seeing them.  I verbally thanked the angels and ran outside to tell Craig.  Luckily he had only started taking out a few items of packing.

For once, he was actually speechless, however I did ask for a thank you!

Chaos In France

It wasn’t just my family who managed to lose our car keys.  Our friends, who we were on holiday with in France in 2018 were due to leave to go back home a week before us.  They were leaving on the Saturday and busily packing their car up whilst my family went to one of the French markets in town.

On our way back, as we travelled along the bumpy, hilly roads, I received a text from my friend Saffy.   “I’ve lost the bloody car keys!!  We think they might be locked in the car, but we have to smash a window to get in. Tanya, please help, we are going to miss our flight, this is a nightmare, we have turned the place upside down, I don’t want to smash the window!”.

My friend Saffy had already heard of my knack of finding keys via my angel helpers and she knew I have psychic ability, I was her last hope.  I suddenly felt a lot of pressure to find these keys. Silently and calmly I closed my eyes as we approached the accommodation.  I couldn’t see anything, my mind hit a blank.  I felt this must be from the pressure of needing to do this for others, in fact, there were other guests that were staying with us, this was almost like a test, I had told them that I was a psychic during our holiday stay and to be honest I can imagine that most of them just took it as a pinch of salt, like I am just a bit wacky!

As Craig pulled up I felt the urge to go straight into the shared kitchen and to look in the dry foods basket.  The feeling to look there was over whelming.  The accommodation we stay at is like a boutique guest house, where each family has their own basket to put their dry foods in like bread for the week. As I entered the gardens, I could see four or five people desperately running around trying to find the keys.

I saw Abbie, the owner, standing at the kitchen doorway.  “I think they are in Saffy’s basket!” I exclaimed.  I walked past her and looked, but could not see them amongst the baguettes and packets of crisps.  I sighed.  As I left the kitchen, I suddenly heard “are these the keys you are looking for?!” and looked up to see Abbie holding the keys and jangling them in front of us, with a very happy look on her face.  She had followed me and decided to look in the basket after I had checked, it appears I didn’t look properly and the keys were underneath the bread in the basket.

Everyone was so relieved, I hadn’t realised it but they had spent two hours looking for those keys before they asked me.  In fact, Danny, Abbie’s husband had been on the phone to friends in the UK in the hope they could pick up Saffy’s family from the port as they were sure they would not find the keys in time.

Danny grinned at me widely “well Tanya, if I wasn’t a believer before, I certainly am now!”.

 

The Missing Spare Key

 

One afternoon I was shopping at my daughters favourite store, HobbyCraft. We had bags full   of her crafting materials and made our way back to my car. I threw it all in the boot and for some stupid, unknown reason, I threw my handbag in too, complete with car and door keys.  I hadn’t unlocked the car doors, just the boot, so as soon as it was closed, my car keys to get us into the car were locked safely away in the boot. I realised my mistake the instant I slammed it shut.  Feeling slightly sick as I noticed that my bag had everything in it, including my mobile phone to call for help,  I had visions of myself and Ariane being stranded in the shopping car park.  HobbeyCraft is the other side of town to where I live, walking home with a five year old was out of the question.  I didn’t even have a front door key to get us in the house!  I decided to go back into the store and ask them if I could borrow their phone, which they kindly agreed.  I called my parents who live closest to the shop and my dad said he was literally just going out of the door to run an errand, it was lucky we caught him. I explained everything and he agreed to pick us up.

Here was the problem, I had lost my car’s spare key.  It had been lost for months and as I had the other key, I didn’t bother to replace the missing one.  I asked dad if he would be happy to take me to my local Ford garage in the hope that they might have a spare master key.  Unfortunately, the helpful sales guy on the desk could not find a spare for me and advised my only option was to call a break down service to break into my car and that would cost a small fortune or, go home and find that missing key.

Mum and dad dropped us back home.  Luckily, they had a spare door key I could use to get into my house.  Ariane and I did our usual trick.  We sat in the middle of the living room and asked the angels to help us.  “Where is that key!” I pleaded with them, remembering that I had searched the entire house for it months ago with no luck.  Just then, a vision of my skiing jacket came into my mind’s eye. Something was telling me to search into the deep bits of the pockets.  My jacket had a lot of pockets, but I was being shown the back of the coat. I jumped up and ran to the coat cupboard, the place where it appears most lost car keys live!  I grabbed the jacket and went through every single pocket.  No key.  I shook the coat, then I felt around the back, bottom sleeve.  There was something lumpy inside.  I opened the vent, slid my hand in and to my absolute joy found the spare key!  I must have accidentally put it in the vent and not the pocket and completely missed it the last time I looked.  I danced around with Ariane exclaiming that the angels are amazing!

Help For A Friend

After I had visited one of my good friends to give her a massage treatment, I arrived home to find she had text me as I travelled back.  “Have you seen my car keys?  I’ve lost them, I was wondering if you might have picked them up by accident with you stuff?”.  I had a good look amongst my towels and blankets but couldn’t find her keys.  I text her back and told her I didn’t have them but would see if I could ask my angel friends for a little guidance.

I sat on my sofa and meditated, asking the angels to direct me as to where those keys were in my friend’s house.  It was like I was seeing remotely, I could see her different rooms but then my vision left her house and a map of Europe was shown clearly in my mind, then zoomed in specifically on the shape of the Italian boot on the map.

I text my friend back in a hurry.  “Do you have an object that you brought back from Italy in your home?  If so, check near there!  It’s worth a shot!”.  I waited around five minutes then I got the text back:

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I won’t lie, I punched the air when I read this.  More validation of help from another world, another place! What else could I ask them to help me find?  I realised then that the possibilities could potentially be endless…….or could they? Is it only small things that they help me find?  What about lost dogs………….or people?

Only time will tell I guess,

Until next time,

Tanya

Sebastian’s Angel

I have a French Bulldog called Sebastian.  We are so close and seem to connect to each other via some form of telepathic communication, there are times when I really do feel like he knows what I am thinking and vice versa.

Seb, as we like to call him, has a licking habit, a licking human habit. He particularly likes to lick me whilst I am trying to do a morning yoga session.  A few weeks back, he decided that instead of chewing on my ear whilst I performed a laying down twist, he would find something else to chew.  As I got up from my stretch I noticed that he had a white feather in his mouth, before I could reach him to pull it out, he swallowed it whole.  “Well let’s hope it brings you luck today Seb” I said.

On that same morning, Seb and I were taking our normal stroll across the fields behind my house.  Seb was running off the lead, his favourite pastime.  As we approached the end of the field that backs along a very busy main road, I made a mental note to put his lead back on.  Seb is usually very good with recall and normally comes back on first whistle blow.  On this morning there were a few things that I hadn’t taken into consideration.  The first was that we had recently come back from Devon, where Seb had the freedom to roam around the green countryside and along the beach, with no cars to worry him or us.  The second thing was that we were now full into the autumn season and the trees and hedges were pretty much bare. This meant that the normally thick hedge that separates the field to the main road was now naked twigs and exposing small gaps, gaps that are the perfect size for a stocky French Bulldog to escape through.

No sooner had I seen the gap, Seb had seen it too, he looked at me, I looked at him, mentally I told him to not even think about, mentally he told me that today he was ignoring my advice.  He dashed and scrambled through the hole, leading to the busy road.  I yelled.  I yelled, I yelled and then I screamed his name.  I could not see Seb.  He was the other side now, he was where the busy main road is.  The hedge was far too high for me to see, I could only hear the sound of zooming vehicles passing at around forty to fifty miles an hour. The entrance to the field was such a distance, I calculated how long it would take me to run to get him, 30 seconds, a bit more?  In that time he would be squashed or lost, taken by someone.  I was about to lose my boy.

I called him again, hoping he would find the hole and come back.  But he didn’t.  I could hear someone walking the other side of the hedge, pushing a pram. I wanted to shout out and ask them to help catch him, but I thought it would be irresponsible if it was a mother and child.  So I stood there and looked up to the sky and said “please angels, save my little Seb, please don’t let him get hit or lost, please help me!!”.

I started to run up along the field and then, before my eyes I saw the black, pounding head of Sebastian, he had found his way to the park entrance from the main road and was bounding toward me at full speed!  He ran into my arms and I swiftly and shakily attached his lead to his harness.  I didn’t know whether to laugh or cry!  How the hell did he find his way back?  How was he not dead?

I walked him to the entrance of the field where the person who I heard walking with the pram met me.  It was a mum, she looked so happy to see Seb on his lead.  “Did you see what happened?” I asked.  “Yes!  Your dog ran through the hedge, down the bank and then toward the main road.  I felt for certain he would get hit by a car but all of the sudden he just stopped at the curb, looked up and the dashed along the pavement, up the steps and into the field entrance!” she said with a relieved look on her face.  I thanked her and we carried on walking home.

I cried as we walked back, I was so shocked that he was ok, that he didn’t run out in the road, that something made him stop, even think about his actions. French Bulldogs are not known for their intelligence skills, in fact, they are known as the clowns of the dog world! What made him turn around?

As we got inside the house and I unleashed him, I thought about my angel prayer. Angels have helped me on so many occasions in the past, I felt sure that they had on this time.  I was soon given validation of this.  As I walked up the stairs, I saw a large feather on the top stair, that wasn’t there before I left that morning.  I smiled to myself and thanked my angels.

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When my husband got home, I told him the story and about the angel feather, my husband just rolled his eyes and said “we have feathers everywhere, you have all those dream catcher things, it’s from that, not an angel, Seb was just lucky!”.

I thought about this and let the seed of doubt enter into my mind.  “ok Angels, if it really was you that helped Seb today, give me another sign, give me a sign right now!”, with that, I looked at my phone as the red notification icon popped up on my Facebook profile.  I clicked on it and saw that someone had posted on the French Bull Dog fan page.  I hadn’t seen a post on there for months, and whenever there was one, I always wanted to see a dog like Seb, but the Frenchie’s they posted were always different colours to him.  Is this my sign, I thought?  If it is, make the dog of this photo look just like Seb, then I will believe!  I clicked on the notification and up popped this beautiful dog:

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I smiled widely to myself, thanks angels, I said.

Sebastian Short – aged about 6 months in this photo:

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Until next time,

Tanya

A Year Of Good Habits

Without making this New Year’s blog post too preachy on how to set good intentions in January (which is not bad advice to be fair!) how about just spreading the word to say that its worth trying to invite in some good practices to our lives and try to be “consistent” with this to see some amazing results, also bearing in mind that if we fall off the wagon, it’s not the end of the world, there is always tomorrow.  Let’s not be too hard on ourselves with rigid and sometimes unachievable goals, as they say, it just takes one little step to see big results over time……

I’m going to start with me and my plans for 2019 which I must say I’ve been building up to over the course of the last couple of years, finally, could I be at the point where I feel “balanced” on all levels?  I’m talking emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically.  That means letting go of stuff that no longer serves me, exercising to a realistic regime and keeping weight consistent, eating healthy, reducing bad habits and achieving all the work goals I have set myself.  So here are my plans:

 

Food

This year I’m sticking to my tried and tested rule of the 80/20 mix of bad versus good, well not even bad, just “naughty”.  During the week this is when I really watch what goes into my mouth, reaching the staggering heights of over seven portions of fruit and veg from Monday to Friday!  Speaking of which, I will also have a nominated fruit of the week which I will chow down on daily to ensure that I get a good mix of different vitamins and goodness from that particularly fruity offering!

We are lucky enough to use the Hello Fresh food box scheme, which now has introduced its “balanced” option on the menu (under 550 calories per meal), another way to encourage good eating habits.  HelloFresh ensures we eat fresh 95% of our week, we have been on this scheme for over two years now and I would go as far to say its life-changing in terms of how and what we eat.

Crisps, cake, puddings and chocolate will be my weekend treat and takeaways will be a once a month, pay day extravaganza.  Ah, takeaways.  My Achilles heel.  Can I do this?  I used to be a one or even two a week kind of girl…..I think it’s a case of having too! After a cholesterol test last summer said that my level was moderately high and bearing in mind most of my daily habits are pretty clean, I’m blaming it all on the saturated fats in takeaways! Praying to be strong on this one……

 

 

Drink

Another weakness has been caffeine (quite frankly, my only real vice!), so what I’m looking to do here is not drink a coffee on waking, leaving this indulgence until around 10 am.  My drink on waking will be hot water mixed with lemon, honey, turmeric and cinnamon. I will continue with my herbal teas and water through-out the day and if I’m feeling lucky allow myself another afternoon coffee (living dangerously on all levels here!).

 

I’m currently partaking with dry-January with my husband, more to help him than me. I can say this quite honestly, alcohol is not a pull for me.  It’s a time stealer, headache inducer and serves me no longer.  Don’t get me wrong, I love a (shared) good bottle of wine and great company, nothing quite makes an evening flow better than a few drinks between good friends.  However, I don’t need it and can quite happily not have it if the mood takes me that way.

 

 

Exercise

I have always been into exercise and been a runner for over 15 years now, the problem is that I was never consistent with it.  After attending a brilliant Ayurveda workshop at the end of last year, it turns out my body type doesn’t like anything too energetic and things like walking and yoga will do me just fine.  This was music to my ears and its exactly what I have been doing, walking my dog daily has really increased my fitness level without putting too much pressure on my joints and yoga I’ve finally started to embrace daily again, I have to say it’s making me feel amazing!  So in 2019, the plan here is to just keep being consistent to see and feel the incredible benefits both of these exercises can do.  I think the message here is that you don’t have to bust your balls to get noticeable exercise results, a little but often is all it takes.

 

 

Wellbeing

Ayurveda comes into play here again as I’m taking the good advice of instilling a sleep routine which is fixed and consistent throughout the week. 10 pm until 6 am is my key sleep time to promote my body to renew cells, heal and get fully rested.  I cannot stress enough how important sleep is for us to function at our best on every level.  In fact, if I feel like a cold is coming, I get an early night without exception and more often than not, that cold has gone by morning because my body has done its healing job during the night.

I’ve also gone ahead and made sure I have booked in regular massage, reiki and reflexology appointments for the first half of this year, to ensure I don’t leave it too long between treatments.  Massage is to help my muscles repair as I am using them constantly during my own work (massage and Reiki practitioner), Reiki for chakra balancing, reflexology for promoting so many health benefits and peace of mind.

Meditation and self-reiki are also key to my routine now, to enhance my spiritual connection for my mediumship and psychic work, most importantly for mindfulness, relaxation and calmness which all equal to a stress-free life (ok, not so much stress-free but being able to manage the stress better).

Not only should I start feeling better from the inside, but a good skin care routine will also help me to feel better on the outside.  I will continue to use natural, organic products on my skin (knocking on the door of 40 now….this is critical!  Haha).

 

Clutter Free!

I have embraced being clutter-free over the last few years and the benefits this has given my mental health cannot be underestimated.  I love to plan and be organised and knowing where everything is helping me like you would not believe.  Our living space and energy in our home is a direct reflection of our mental health.  Some people may disagree with that statement but I feel the two are intrinsically linked. When I come home and my house is tidy and clean still, it makes me feel a million dollars and having that energy flow well around my house, gives me a serious high I can tell ya!

 

Relationships

This year it’s all about quality over quantity, saying no to invites that I just don’t fancy and would only go too because I felt I had too, without feeling the need to explain myself.  Why do we do this to ourselves?  I love to stay in and be at home with my family, I also love to go out and let my hair down, sometimes I like to do one thing more than the other and that’s just fine. I don’t care what anyone thinks about that anymore.  As you grow older you settle into the energies that resonate the most with you and that’s exactly what you should be doing.  Some people get their energy boost from other human beings, others get their energy boost from alone activities like reading, walking or watching films. I personally like a bit of both, depending on the mood.  My mood changes from week to week (like most of the female population) and I will now live my life according to that natural schedule.  That feels pretty liberating I have to say!

 

Moments Of Gratitude

These are always important, I already practice feeling gratitude but I want to do this even more in 2019.  Feeling true gratitude is when we are humbled to have everyone and everything in our lives, from our good health to our freedom to live in a country that allows us to strive to be the best individual that we can be.  To bring in more of what you already have in abundance you must appreciate that very thing, to understand that nothing should ever be taken for granted.  To have air to breathe, shelter, food and water and love, that is a winning lotto ticket right there.

 

Spirituality

My faith means everything to me and without it, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I am not religious but I have a firm and unequivocal belief in life after death.  Having this depth of faith allows me to live my life knowing that once we die, it is not the end of our existence of “us”, it just changes form (funny, a bit like energy itself!).

I am lucky enough to have a job that means that I walk my talk so to speak and help others on their spiritual journey.  What I often see is individuals reaching a certain point in their lifetime (often around the forty-year mark, they don’t call it a mid-life crisis for anything) but this also happens in other age decades too, its different for every soul journey.  But what is happening exactly?  The crown chakra is starting to open, in brief, things that used to serve us no longer do, the person realises that they will not find happiness outside of their own selves. Family, friends and work can certainly and will enhance feelings of happiness and contentment, but that means nothing if we feel empty inside.  Self -reflection, introspection and making peace with our inner demons is when we finally can accept who we are and love ourselves and then others, unconditionally.

I hope to bring you many more blog posts this year, especially on my ever winding and enhancing spiritual journey!  Happy new year to all my fab followers and thank you so much for your support over 2018, my heart will always be filled with so much gratitude!

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Until next time,

Tanya

The Intelligence Of Spirit

Every once in a while during my spiritual journey, something big happens that I will never forget.  These experiences are actually quite few and far between however, one of those very moments happened just last week, on 5thNovember, my 38thbirthday.

That night, I had a very vivid dream (to protect the identity of all those involved, I have changed the name below):

I was getting ready to meet someone and had dressed as if I was going for a job interview.  I remember feeling nervous and was in a very large building, like in the City.  I entered the foyer and approached the front desk, where a receptionist was waiting for me. 

“Who am I here to meet?” I asked. “Nathan Davies” she replied and quickly scribbled the name on a post it note and held it up to me, I could clearly see the spelling of the name.  “Nathan Davies” I repeated and turned to see a young man, around twenty or twenty-one who had his brown dog with him.  I remember his eyes and fair wavy hair.

 

When I awoke, I kept repeating the name in my head “Nathan Davies”.  I have connected with spirit via dreams in the past but never have I been given an accurate name before.  I knew it was significant.

I asked my colleague if she knew anyone by that name and she confirmed she didn’t.  I decided that perhaps it may be some message for me so I googled the name but came up with nothing really out of the ordinary.  I then decided to pop the name into a Facebook search.  Instantly I was drawn to a page called “Remembering Nathan Davies”.

When I clicked on the page and saw the photograph of the young man, exactly as I had in my dream, holding the dog on his lap, my mouth hit the floor.  It was him, Nathan.  I had a look at some of the posts on the page and I could work out that he must have died some years ago, however his mother was still badly grieving, she had only posted something on the page two days previously, detailing the agonising pain she was going through and still not being able to come to terms with her son’s loss.  It was then that I realised what I had to do, Nathan had come to me for a reason, he wanted to get a reading to his mum, I felt compelled to connect with him again and provide her with a reading.

I have to stress, I would never ever normally conduct a reading for someone without their permission.  This is ethically unacceptable.  However, the extraordinary circumstances of this event in the way that Nathan connected to me, was telling me this case was different.

I looked on the mum’s facebook profile and could see she lived in Australia so knew that this would not be an easy task but I prayed that my reading would be received with the kind wishes intended, the last thing I wanted was for her or the family to think I was some fake psychic trying to pray on a grieving family.

I took the plunge and sat down to start my reading and recorded it on an App via my mobile phone.

After I had finished, I just wasn’t sure if there was enough evidence there and wondered what the hell I should do.  But I told myself that I had to trust in this so I plucked up the courage and sent a message to Nathan’s mum via Facebook messenger.

After a day, I didn’t hear anything.  I then figured that this lady may be older and not very computer savvy so I decided to try and find a sibling, which I did,  on the remembrance page, a sister.  I messaged her and prayed she would receive it.

A day or so later, the sister messaged me back.  Initially a little bit cautious (completely understandable) she decided to receive the reading and I sent it across to her.  I must admit, I felt sick at this point.  My main worry was that they would think I was a charlatan but all I wanted to do was get Nathan’s love across to this mum.  It turns out that I need not of worried, because Nathan’s sister kindly gave me some feedback, which I will detail below (bringing out the key pieces of evidence):

  • I described Nathans personality in detail, how he was incredibly funny and the joker of the family (adapting his jokes to suit the family or friend member intended), but was also a gentle giant, would say what he felt in few words and sometimes sat back to observe things and take it all in.

Feedback: The description of his personality was correct

 

  • Nathan’s dog was significant and I stressed that when he got him, he wanted him to be his dog only and not a “family dog” as such.

Feedback: Nathan went to a bird breeding auction and ended up getting a dog, before he asked the permission of his parents, he was 16 at the time.

 

  • I could see that someone had moved out of the family home just before Nathan died.

Feedback: Nathan’s sister moved out 2 months before he passed.

 

  • He clearly gave me the name Barry during the reading.

Feedback: Barry was Nathan’s tutor

 

  • He told me that he died by something very rare and that all the elements had to be aligned for that one thing to happen, the chances of which were remote

Feedback: Nathan’s sister confirmed that her brother died of something very rare

 

  • He was showing me a concert, or music venue, or the foyer of such like it held particular significance.

Feedback: This piece of evidence helped Nathan’s sister the most.  The week that he died, they were meant to be going to a concert which would have been on the night he passed.  They had decided earlier on in the week not to go.

 

  • Part way thought the reading I started to cough and struggled to talk, I then was shown a company that is heavily invested where Nathan would have lived, however whatever this company does it is causing pollution and there are health worries around this including coughing.

Feedback: The smoke causing the illness has affected both Nathans parents.

  • Nathan was showing me a book and he was handing it to his sister, he was making reference to the book like it was special and held significance for her only.

Feedback: Nathan paid for some of his sisters university text books.

 

  • Nathan was showing me that he loved to walk in nature, especially lakes.

Feedback: The house that Nathan lived in with his family was 10 metres from the lake. 

 

 

As you can read, I was so blown away by the feedback but mostly by the intelligence and power of spirits that are living another life from this one.  It is clear to me that Nathan wants to help his mother and family, however, he can’t get the message across.  So he is using any medium that will listen, it just so happens that I connect very well in my dream state to spirit, it also happens that I will always follow up a dream and a sign, which I did without fail and it lead me straight to Nathan’s family.

I don’t know if I will ever have anything happen like this again, but I hope that I do as in my opinion, it’s a fantastic way for a spirit to reach out to a loved one and another way for mediums to validate that life continues after we die.

Until next time,

Tanya

The Psychic Underworld

I recently read an author describe anything to do with mediumship, paranormal, psychic studies & the occult as an “Underground Movement”, this is probably because when he started to have out of body experiences as he slept, in those days, the 1950’s, it was very much an underground group of people that he needed to speak to in order to research more about what was going on with him.  However, I have to say that sometimes it still feels a little like that now.

When I realised that a lot of the odd things that have happened to me are not generally happening to everyone else, I decided that I needed to find some like-minded individuals that I could spend time with to explore what the hell was going on.

So how do you penetrate this underground movement?  The first thing I thought of was to join a circle, but this is harder than you may think.  However, once you have a connection to mediums, psychics and spiritual healers, developing from there on in is so much easier because someone knows someone who knows someone that runs a course of whatever it is you are looking to study.  But getting in there is what can take the effort and finding the right teacher, is even harder.

The Circle

Home circles started in the 1800’s, mainly for the development of one individual and for others to come and sit and listen to the medium practice and demonstrate the existence of life after death through the work of their spirit guides.  Typically, people would sit in a circle formation, hence the name.

Circles are still around these days, they can be open (where anyone can drop in and out each week) or closed (an agreed group of people that should attend on the same day and time each week).

Home circles are generally seen as the best setting, as its comfortable and the energy can build up quickly to allow people to feel at ease and a place of safety to develop their skills.

On occasion, if I happen to mention that I am part of a circle, I can get looked at strangely whilst the person I’m talking to is probably imagining me joining hands with a group of strangers and summoning up spirits from the dead or planning when we are going to run off to Stonehenge and knock back some Cool Aid.

It couldn’t be further from the truth.  It’s uplifting to be around others that have the same abilities as you and know what it is you are seeing, hearing and feeling.  I have had so many wonderful experiences in the circle, I have been astounded at the evidence I have received from others and been gobsmacked and at times, almost euphoric when I have managed to break through the barrier of mind versus spirit communication and given evidence that has shocked me to the core.

Spiritualist Churches

There are conflicting schools of thought as to where the spiritualist church originated from, so for the sake of argument lets go with Wiki and say the United States in the 1840s.  England also has a rich history of spiritualism dating back hundreds of years and some of the best and well-known mediums to date have come from our shores.

The churches are still around today and open to all that wish to go along to listen to the medium demonstrate evidence of the afterlife up on the platform.

I personally find the Sunday Service (Divine Service) a little too church-like / religious undertones, even though I must stress it is not affiliated with any religion other than the religion of spiritualism.  But whether spiritualism is a religion in itself is open for debate, in my opinion, I think there is a difference between “spirituality” and “spiritualism” per se.

Anyhow, going to a church to see a (good and well respected) medium is an experience in itself and one I would encourage anyone to do if they are interested in this subject.

Schools & Affiliated Bodies

There are a number of psychic schools worldwide and proudly one of the best is only twenty minutes from where I live, The Arthur Findlay College in Stansted, Essex (www.arthurfindlaycollege.org).  This college offers residential courses and workshops of all of the topics you can think of when it comes to mediumship and your psychic development, they have some of the best teachers from all over the world.  The building itself, which was built in 1871 was gifted to the Spiritualists National Union (SNU) by James Arthur Findlay and started as a college in 1945.  It’s worth taking a visit to its beautiful architecture and history alone.

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If you are really serious about your spiritualist studies, you can take an exam, called the SNU Qualification which allows you to learn about the religion, philosophy and practice of spiritualism and will certify that you actually know what you are talking about!

Forums & Social Media Groups

Some Facebook groups have been such a good source of information for me, especially those on out of body experiences and near death experiences.  What I started to do was read lots of books around these subjects and then follow the authors on social media and I have made so many good connections from doing this.  When you see those other people, from all over the globe are having the same experience as you, putting it into their own words, but the same theme is presented over and over again, that’s a really good thing and is incredibly powerful when people like myself can be up against some very strong-minded individuals….which brings me onto my next point…..

Opinions, Views & Beliefs

Many of the most enlightening books I have read have been of true stories of medical doctors and scientists that have changed their belief system after having a personal experience with the afterlife.  This kind of stuff really excites me, especially as I have always had my feet firmly in both camps (for example I believe humans descended from monkeys and evolved over thousands of years, however, I also believe that when we die we have a rebirth in another state of consciousness).

I used to get really defensive about my belief system and dare I say it, even angry at the non-believer.   That doesn’t happen anymore.  I would be a bit radical if that was how I behaved with someone who didn’t think the way I did.

I have come to realise that life isn’t about what you believe, it’s about how good your heart is. It’s about what you do, not how you think.

I still tread carefully when I tell people about my abilities, especially whilst still learning, as there is always room for error.

I have an example from just yesterday of when, sometimes, it’s good to speak up about things that I see and hear.

I was massaging a lovely female client when I looked up and felt like someone was watching me (not someone alive!).  I sort of saw shadows and like something was trying to form, the reality was changing.  I decided to tune into whoever this spirit was and this is what I got (clairvoyantly):

It was a man, who told me that he was connected to my client’s husband, an old friend, that was part of the bird watching group.  He died unexpectedly, of a heart attack.  He kept drawing my attention to a large framed photograph of a landscape on the wall like it held particular significance and I should mention it.  He said the reason why he had come to visit is that he wanted to thank both my client and her husband for the trip they were about to take, some sort of memorial in his name and that he would be with them.

After I had finished the treatment, I asked my client if she would be happy to receive and validate something I just got from a spirit as I wanted to pass the message on.  To my relief, she was happy and interested to hear this.  After I had explained everything, she told me this:

One of her husband’s good, long-term friends had died of a heart attack a couple of years ago, on a plane back from Goa, India.  He was coming back from a bird watching trip, they travelled all over to enjoy their hobby.  My client and her husband are going on a memorial trip, to India in a few weeks’ time.  The framed photo on the wall is one that he took, so it has sentimental connections to the dear friend they lost.

If I hadn’t have spoken up, my lovely client would never have got her message and the spirit would have wasted so much of his own energy.

When it works and communication is received, understood and delivered correctly, it truly is an amazing thing (if only it worked that well all the time!).

Until next time,

Tanya

The Tarot – a love affair rekindled

My relationship with the tarot started in my very early twenties after I went on a trip to Broadstairs with my boyfriend and had a knowing feeling that I would find an interesting spiritual shop on that day and come out with a deck of Ryder Waite Tarot cards (a traditional deck).

After my purchase, I was only equipped with the little guidebook and wondered how long it would take me to memorise the meaning not only of each suite type (cups, swords, wands & pentacles) but also the meaning of seventy-eight cards and don’t even get me started to explain the difference between major and minor arcana…..

However, as the Universe loves to play with me a little, the very next week at my London City job my colleague gave me a leaflet about a holistic school that was situated bang smack in the middle of Bishops Gate, near Liverpool Street.  She was eager to do a six week Feng Shui course, so I decided what the heck, I would do it too, anything to have an interesting lunch period away from Google and Cheese & Onion Walkers.

The place was actually called the Bishopsgate Institute and was this very old & intriguing building surrounding by the sharpness of the new financial companies right in the heart of London’s square mile.  From the moment I stepped into it, smelling the muskiness and just feeling the energies of so many bodies that had walked through, I knew I would like it there.

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I really enjoyed that six week Feng Shui course (and learnt how to redirect my chi by buying a few goldfish) but most excitingly, saw on the notice board that they also did a six week “learn to do tarot” course, this was a bit of me!

So I did the course and met some like-minded people, bought the teachers book and decided that the only way I was going to understand this ancient form of deviation was to practice.

And practice I did.  I don’t quite know how it happened, but I went from reading my friends to suddenly being a known (be it a bit of an “underground” known) entity at my place of work for tarot readings.  At that time, I worked for a very large Underwriters and it was so corporate and very far removed from anything in the least bit spiritual.  However, I managed to (somehow, I have no idea how) convince people like the Tax Manager that he would just love a tarot reading, so, in our lunch break, he would get a free reading for thirty minutes and then he would give me thirty minutes back by explaining the best pension plan I should take moving forwards (not actually sure if that was a fair swap).

I also had suppliers coming in to meet with me to discuss the contract and pricing on the equipment we bought, however, once my manager left the meeting, the supplier would quickly and excitedly ask “have you got them?” and much to their delight I would pull out my tarot deck and give them a quick 3 card pull.

Fast forward seventeen years and I have bought a few more decks since, ones that resonate with me, but the readings had died down.  I’m not sure why, perhaps focus was on other things, but I thought perhaps that I just didn’t get “it”.  I also heard a medium once warn people about fake readers who just learn the card meanings and make out they were genuine psychics, this made me concerned that perhaps that was me?  I mean, I know I’m psychic, but was I just reading the meanings and not tuning in?  So this put me off a bit.  Until this year.

We decided to run a competition to give one of our clients a free tarot reading, I decided that it would be good practice for me.  The lady came into the treatment room, looking excited that she had won and also with a sense of anticipation.  I felt every ounce of that anticipation and then felt the pressure that followed.  Shuffling the cards, I prayed that I would give her a good reading.

So I spread out the cards in my familiar order and then started to tell her the meanings of the cards.  I could see from the basic meanings that she had recently experienced heartache that was so deep, real gut-wrenching stuff.  She nodded her head.  “Can you tell me why I’ve been crying?” she asked.  Bloody hell.  OK, here goes.  I picked up the first card I was drawn too and looked at the imagery.  I could see clouds, but then, slowly but surely, I saw a man’s face in the clouds appear.  “It’s about a man, you have split up with a man”?  I asked.  She nodded her head yes.  I looked at the card again and suddenly saw a man and woman, both holding on to a dog lead, pulling the dog in either direction.  “You are fighting over the dog?” I asked, “Yes!  He won’t let me have him!” she said, now starting to cry.  When I looked back at the card, I couldn’t see the dog anymore, all I could see was the cloud image.

As I handed her the box of tissues, a moment of clarity dawned on me.  All those years, all those years and I didn’t know that all I had to do is look at the card and see an image that tells me a story, which is actually me just tuning into my intuition.  I gave her such an accurate reading that even I was speechless at the end.

So now, my relationship with the tarot has been rekindled, because since that reading with my competition winner, I haven’t stopped and its been getting stronger and stronger.  I recently had the chance to have a long conversation with a very experienced and well respected medium and professional tarot reader who gave me some wonderful advice “trust the cards, not your judgement” and that I feel will probably be the best advice I have ever had when it comes to reading the tarot.

The difference between a good reader and a great reader is that the great reader can pick up a card, know the basic meaning, be drawn to the images on the card and then use their psychic intuition to tell the story of the sitter’s life.  It may just be a squiggly line to a passer-by, but actually, that squiggly line means a whole host of things that the reader tells the sitter and that the sitter absolutely understands.

I hope one day to be a great reader because when I read tarot for someone I feel like its what I was always meant to do, it’s a very exciting journey and I feel blessed every day to have these abilities, life really is magic!

Until next time,

Tanya